Reflections

At some point in our life we tend to look back on our life and the people who were in it and reflect. Recently I have been thinking about doing this more and more. I have a new job because of the amazing skills that I learned in college. I didn’t realize how grateful I was until my new boss asked where I had gained the knowledge that I needed for this job. There was not one time during that conversation that I didn’t use “I learned this at college from this professor or from this class.”

Ever since I graduated I had become distant from the college and even more so from the professor that taught me everything that I know in media. I figured out the reason was because I wasn’t living up to my potential and I felt like I had disappointed him. I felt ashamed that I wasn’t going out and grabbing my dream like I talked about so much while in school. But the truth was that I was terrified that if I failed then everything that I learned didn’t really stick or that my professor would be so disappointed in me because I had such potential.

Well to be honest that was a stupid fear I had. So every reason that I had been avoiding him for the past 7 months was for nothing. So here I am sitting in a Perkins waiting (crashing a college final) to talk to him and say thank you. To tell him that everything he taught me was worth it. That I am making something of myself. That every skill he taught me was being put to good use. That without him I might was well be still working a dead end job with no hope of going anywhere. All while trying to resist crying because he is a very dear professor to me, a mentor, a friend, and the perfect person tell me to reach for my dreams.

Thank you for everything!

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Thoughts from a sleepy mind

There’s a time in life when we all have to take a look back on what we have done, accomplished, or wished we could redo in our life. I was just thinking of a couple and really thinking about if I had done this differently. How would my life be right now. Would it change? Would it be different?

Would I be a stronger person or would I be weaker? Are the hard times in my life what make who I am today?

A strong independent person who is sometimes afraid to say what she feels because she has been hurt to much or maybe I hide what I feel to make myself stronger by remembering what has happened and then using that to guide my path so the same mistake doesn’t happen.

What if I hardly made it through the tough times what would my life be like?
I was brought this question by a friend who has had a hard time in life I really began to think what if I did come out differently than I am because of those hard times? What would I be like?

This is what I came up with.

If I decided after I got my heart crushed to just give up and realize that no one loved me
I wouldn’t be who I am.
I would be the most bitter person or I would be the person that is so afraid of commitment that I will always be alone no matter what.
I won’t even have pets because I would be afraid to love.

What if I didn’t come out strong or independent? Would I would just be weak, taking orders from anybody and everybody? I wouldn’t know how to say no or leave me alone. I wouldn’t be me.

So me. Who am I really? This was asked by the same friend who asked what if I had come out differently.

I really had to sit down and think about who I truly was. I first got the basics female, born in march in 1990 in Nebraska. I have two older brothers, loving parents, and family altogether. I have a ring of green and a ring of brown in my eyes, semi-dark brown hair, slender with muscle, size 8.5 shoe, fav. color blue, fav. animal monkey, fav. food mexican.

Small stuff that doesn’t really define a person. I had to really think about who I truly was. I know this for a fact, I am a child of the most high God and I love him so much, I have too much energy, I am really random, I love to think about deep subjects without getting into a debate, I love to take pictures, be outside, I love to go star gazing, I love nature, I love being with that one person that just makes you smile no matter what mood your in. I love the first snow, I think kissing in the rain, or while it is dark and snowing is amazing, I love the fact that no matter what people say to me or how much they try to bring me down it doesn’t bother me. I love the fact that God has blessed me with many talents like writing  music, wit and dancing. I love that fact that when I feel like I have no one to talk to I have God and he is always there for me.

He knows better than I the plans he has for me, the ones he put into action in my life so that I can do his work.

I love the fact that I am strong willed. I won’t do something I feel and think is wrong. I love that no one change make me change to who they want to be because I am me and nothing is going to change that I love who I am. The crazy spunky girl who has everything in the world all because she trusts in God. 

I know the world is spinning….. and it seems like sometimes so is our life.
I know time passes……….and those we love will forgive us.
I know we do the best we can…… even when it doesn’t seem like it.
I know that God is good….and he and is the one true remaining thing in our lives.

I Believe

I BELIEVE:

A Birth Certificate shows that we were born
Death Certificate shows that we died
Pictures show that we lived! 

I Believe…. 

That just because two people argue, It doesn’t mean they don’t love each other. And just because they don’t argue, It doesn’t mean they do love each other.

I Believe…

That we don’t have to change friends if We understand that friends change. 

I Believe….

That no matter how good a friend is, they’re going to hurt you every once in a while and you must forgive them for that. 

I Believe…

That true friendship continues to grow, even over the longest distance. Same goes for true love.

I Believe…

That you can do something in an instant That will give you heartache for life.. 

I Believe…

That it’s taking me a long time To become the person I want to be.

I Believe…

That you should always leave loved ones with Loving words. It may be the last time you see them.. 

I Believe…

That you can keep going long after you think you can’t. 

I Believe…

That we are responsible for what We do, no matter how we feel.

I Believe…

That either you control your attitude or it controls you. 

I Believe…

That heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.

I Believe…

That money is a lousy way of keeping score.

I Believe…

That my best friend and I, can do anything, or nothing and have the best time. 

I Believe…

That sometimes the people you expect to kick you When you’re down, will be the ones to help you get back up.

I Believe…

That sometimes when I’m angry I have the right to be angry, but that doesn’t give me the right to be cruel.

I Believe…

That maturity has more to do with what types of experiences you’ve had and what you’ve learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays you’ve celebrated. 

I Believe…

That it isn’t always enough, to be forgiven by others. Sometimes, you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I Believe…

That no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn’t stop for your grief 

I Believe…

That our background and circumstances may have influenced who we are,

But, we are responsible for who we become. 

I Believe…

That you shouldn’t be so eager to find Out a secret. It could change your life Forever. 

I Believe…

Two people can look at the exact same Thing and see something totally different.

I Believe….

That your life can be changed in a matter of Hours by people who don’t even know you. 

I Believe…

That even when you think you have no more to give, when A friend cries out to you – you will find the strength to help.

I Believe…

That credentials on the wall do not make you a decent human being.

I Believe…

That the people you care about most in life are taken from you too soon. 

‘The happiest of people don’t necessarily have the best of everything; they just make the most of everything.

 Thank you God for all the wonderful people who have helped me throughout the journey of life…

Our deepest fea…

Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light not our darkness that most frightens us. WE ask ourselves who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually who are you NOT to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world.There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won’t feel insecure around you. WE are all meant to shine, as children do. WE were born to make manifest the Glory of God that is within us. It is not just in some of us, it is in all of us. As we let our light shine we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear our presence automatically liberates others. — Marianne Williamson

What is fear?

Dictionaries describe fear as an unpleasant emotion caused by the belief that someone or something is dangerous, likely to cause pain, or a threat.

But I think the above quote captures the meaning of fear perfectly. While yes we should “fear” things that are dangerous. Doesn’t mean we need to fear life itself.

Whenever I use to say that I was afraid of something my mom would look at me and say what does 2 Timothy 1:7 say and obediently I would reply “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.” When I was younger I got quite annoyed with this, I knew she was right but at times I just wanted her to say everything is going to be fine dear but of course being a pastor’s kid that is not the response I would get.

Now that I’m older and I have gotten “wise” I understand why she would make me quote 2 Timothy 1:7. Because we really have nothing to fear.

The reason we become afraid of the things in our life is because we fear failure and what we can do and overcome. And for some insane reason that terrifies us. Why are we afraid of success and the confidence that can make us do great things in the world? While this is still a struggle for me I am starting to see that I can’t be afraid if I want to make something of my life. I have to be willing to take risks and chances to get what I want.

I just recently took a chance to start getting what I want out of life and you know what, I got what I wanted! I’m not saying you will always get what you want but you have to at least be willing to take the chance.

Get out of your comfort zone and jump into the unknown.

Be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous!

Who are you NOT to be?
Let me rephrase this….

Who do you WANT to be?

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Words to live by

Words to live by

I selected this photo as a reminder to those who too often forget that we need to take some time to do the things that make us the most happy. If it’s reading a book on the grass on a warm summer day or going for a ride on a horse.

This is a key to happiness doing what makes YOU happy. If you have conceded to a life of doing what others want you to, I can tell you that you will end up with a life of regret and wondering.

Stop and smell the roses.
Travel to new places.
Try new foods.

Be happy and ENJOY your life.

Masks and True Faces

When people look at you what do they see?
Do they see who you truly are or the mask you wear?
Is it who you want them to think you are?

For those of you who wear a mask….why?
Why don’t you want people to see you, the real you the person you are trying to hide?

Are you not happy with who you are?
Do you think that people won’t like you, the real you?

Are you afraid to show who you truly are and what you truly feel?
Are you not comfortable in you own skin?
Therefore you try to be someone you’re not.

Today is the day to take off the mask. Show who you truly are. Accept yourself, that is all that really matters. If you are not willing to accept your own self as you truly are and you are willing to hide behind masks and charades then the people who accept you…. are accepting a lie.

Be happy with yourself, embrace yourself. Let your freak flag fly as it is said. Don’t be afraid to be weird, nerdy, hyper, geeky…..HAPPY! Let go of what you think is the perfect image for you. The people who are true and real in your life will accept everything about you. All the weird and nonsense. These are the people worth having in your life, these are true friends, because they will become your family.

This family that is created will be there for you They will have your back, stick up for you, and stand by you when everyone else has gone away in the tough times. They are the ones who will be around for the rest of your life.

With this being said, being the REAL you, means you can live your life to the fullest.
Live everyday with passion and focus, but be sure to throw in some spontaneity for the fun of it. Being yourself will make you happy and show the WORLD who you really are.

Reach for your dreams, strive to achieve them. Don’t let anyone or anything stand in your way. Find a passion that makes you excited to get up EVERY DAY!

Enjoy your passions. Love your life. Live it up with your friends and family.

Live each day to the fullest.
Laugh as often as you can.
Love with every depth of your heart.

BE YOURSELF!

Simplicity

Simple- Easy. Normal. Familiar.
Relationship Simple- Normal. Familiar. Natural.

Simplicity is good. It brings things to an even level. For all who are involved in a relationship sense, it is for those who are careful of heart and mind. Simple is best. But once simplicity becomes to comfortable then it’s time to take a step outside the comfort zone.

To say feelings aren’t there would be false. But behind that is a small fear of rejection, That the heart wouldn’t take, because something might be lost. A friendship that is most values, Although not completely lost, just changed. A fear that a closeness might be hindered.

Simplicity is a good start to anything.

Relationship simple- Normal. Familiar. Natural.
Simple- Easy. Normal. Familiar.